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9 years ago #11

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9 years ago #12

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now i know why you bullied and tried to make me miserable playing this game, but congrats on your successful recovery bro i hope you continue being blessed and stay strong

9 years ago #13

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[quote=Black_Star]Hello fellow inmates, i woke up today and checked my phone as i usually do, but what i saw, and i'm not in the least bit ashamaed to say, brought me to tears.
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Now this seems simple to some, but it meant the world to me. The text came from my younger cousin who has lived and always been really close to me. She's turning 18 on the 31st and she wanted to make sure i'd be there. She was so happy to know that of all pople in the world, I, was going to attend. I felt so foolish and stupid for ever thinking i didnt mean shit to anybody in my life. There were times where i thought it ws best to take myself away from these kind of people who care that muh about me.

Most of you don't know, but the 2-3 years hiatus i took from prisonblock, i spent sufering a real mental breakdown. I was depressed and at times suicidal, if any of you had seen my profile some time in the last 2-3 weeks you would have seen the piece i wrote about the anniversary of my suicide attempt in those years. I felt alone and worthless, mostly just a burden, to friends and family. And if i didnt talk to people often, even so much as small talk asking about the weather or something, i got really depressed and the demons would flood back. But i've since overcome that, i'm in a much better and much happier state of mind than i used to be. Which is the main reason i'm writing a book about that experience, so i know what used to be and what not to go back to.

So this thank you to all of you, especially the people who constantly hop on discord just to hang out, i appreciate you all more than words can possibly describe. I'm not 100% sure that I could deal with being alone or isolated again, just having nobody to talk to, but you all don't allow that to be reality for me. I can't thank you enough for that, it's you all that keep my demons at bay and allow for me to continue living my life happy and for the people who care for me as i care for them.
So once again, Thank You All! :D[/quote]

Tears roll as i write. I also have dealt with the same issue! Life doesn't seem fair some times. Before I decided to get behind God, and follow his path, which ever way things turn, there's a reason, although at times you can't understand why bad things keeps happening. I have had it hard all my life, and still to this day, if something good happens, there's always a down fall right behind it, and have no clue why! But BS, you keep pushing for that little girl, and draw family as close to you as you can, cause they will be there, when nobody else will brother.. Sorry, didn't mean to get on me so much.. God Bless

Originally posted by Black_Star Hello fellow inmates, i woke up today and checked my phone as i usually do, but what i saw, and i'm not in the least bit ashamaed to say, brought me to tears.

Now this seems simple to some, but it meant the world to me. The text came from my younger cousin who has lived and always been really close to me. She's turning 18 on the 31st and she wanted to make sure i'd be there. She was so happy to know that of all pople in the world, I, was going to attend. I felt so foolish and stupid for ever thinking i didnt mean shit to anybody in my life. There were times where i thought it ws best to take myself away from these kind of people who care that muh about me.

Most of you don't know, but the 2-3 years hiatus i took from prisonblock, i spent sufering a real mental breakdown. I was depressed and at times suicidal, if any of you had seen my profile some time in the last 2-3 weeks you would have seen the piece i wrote about the anniversary of my suicide attempt in those years. I felt alone and worthless, mostly just a burden, to friends and family. And if i didnt talk to people often, even so much as small talk asking about the weather or something, i got really depressed and the demons would flood back. But i've since overcome that, i'm in a much better and much happier state of mind than i used to be. Which is the main reason i'm writing a book about that experience, so i know what used to be and what not to go back to.

So this thank you to all of you, especially the people who constantly hop on discord just to hang out, i appreciate you all more than words can possibly describe. I'm not 100% sure that I could deal with being alone or isolated again, just having nobody to talk to, but you all don't allow that to be reality for me. I can't thank you enough for that, it's you all that keep my demons at bay and allow for me to continue living my life happy and for the people who care for me as i care for them.

So once again, Thank You All! Grin

Tears roll as i write. I also have dealt with the same issue! Life doesn't seem fair some times. Before I decided to get behind God, and follow his path, which ever way things turn, there's a reason, although at times you can't understand why bad things keeps happening. I have had it hard all my life, and still to this day, if something good happens, there's always a down fall right behind it, and have no clue why! But BS, you keep pushing for that little girl, and draw family as close to you as you can, cause they will be there, when nobody else will brother.. Sorry, didn't mean to get on me so much.. God Bless

9 years ago #14

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It's so cold out here
I can see my own breath
My body temperature's falling
No end in sight, this looks like death
Maybe I'll just sit here for awhile
My body feels so tired
As I sat down I began to feel
Like my feet had both been mired
In the cold, as my toes
No longer felt like they were mine
Can't walk to shelter anymore
I guess this is my time
All alone out in the cold
No sign of warmth in sight
Vision fading fast, all I can see is black
I'm hoping and praying to see the light
As I lay to accept my fate
Thinking the cold has finally won
I start to hear movements around me
The sound of a woman and her son
But the cold's already got me
I lay here in it grasp
The only thing running through my mind
Is how these thoughts would be my last
Next thing I know
I'm sitting by a fire
Feeling warmth I hadn't felt in ages
Unlike the cold I felt prior
Blanket wrapped around me
Hot cocoa in my hand
I looked around and saw the mother and son
So I felt I had to ask questions to understand
What happened to me 
And more importantly, how I got here
Though she was older
She looked at me and talked to me as if we were peers
She gave me a radiant smile
The most beautiful in all the land
No words were said, but I saw her son
Gripping tightly her already frost bitten hand
After awhile we all stood up, fully warm
We packed up all the covers
And side by side we walked together
So that we may find and help another
@Hanako wrote this just for you

It's so cold out here

I can see my own breath

My body temperature's falling

No end in sight, this looks like death

Maybe I'll just sit here for awhile

My body feels so tired

As I sat down I began to feel

Like my feet had both been mired

In the cold, as my toes

No longer felt like they were mine

Can't walk to shelter anymore

I guess this is my time

All alone out in the cold

No sign of warmth in sight

Vision fading fast, all I can see is black

I'm hoping and praying to see the light

As I lay to accept my fate

Thinking the cold has finally won

I start to hear movements around me

The sound of a woman and her son

But the cold's already got me

I lay here in it grasp

The only thing running through my mind

Is how these thoughts would be my last

Next thing I know

I'm sitting by a fire

Feeling warmth I hadn't felt in ages

Unlike the cold I felt prior

Blanket wrapped around me

Hot cocoa in my hand

I looked around and saw the mother and son

So I felt I had to ask questions to understand

What happened to me

And more importantly, how I got here

Though she was older

She looked at me and talked to me as if we were peers

She gave me a radiant smile

The most beautiful in all the land

No words were said, but I saw her son

Gripping tightly her already frost bitten hand

After awhile we all stood up, fully warm

We packed up all the covers

And side by side we walked together

So that we may find and help another

@Hanako wrote this just for you

9 years ago #15

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OMG that is beautiful! Thank you Heart

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