Hello fellow inmates, i woke up today and checked my phone as i usually do, but what i saw, and i'm not in the least bit ashamaed to say, brought me to tears.

Now this seems simple to some, but it meant the world to me. The text came from my younger cousin who has lived and always been really close to me. She's turning 18 on the 31st and she wanted to make sure i'd be there. She was so happy to know that of all pople in the world, I, was going to attend. I felt so foolish and stupid for ever thinking i didnt mean shit to anybody in my life. There were times where i thought it ws best to take myself away from these kind of people who care that muh about me.

Most of you don't know, but the 2-3 years hiatus i took from prisonblock, i spent sufering a real mental breakdown. I was depressed and at times suicidal, if any of you had seen my profile some time in the last 2-3 weeks you would have seen the piece i wrote about the anniversary of my suicide attempt in those years. I felt alone and worthless, mostly just a burden, to friends and family. And if i didnt talk to people often, even so much as small talk asking about the weather or something, i got really depressed and the demons would flood back. But i've since overcome that, i'm in a much better and much happier state of mind than i used to be. Which is the main reason i'm writing a book about that experience, so i know what used to be and what not to go back to.

So this thank you to all of you, especially the people who constantly hop on discord just to hang out, i appreciate you all more than words can possibly describe. I'm not 100% sure that I could deal with being alone or isolated again, just having nobody to talk to, but you all don't allow that to be reality for me. I can't thank you enough for that, it's you all that keep my demons at bay and allow for me to continue living my life happy and for the people who care for me as i care for them.

So once again, Thank You All!

Well done man... Mental health is so important to us all and being able to talk about it openly without judgement is essential... Good to hear your in a happier place now

Good luck man!!!

I'm happy for you black..

Never give up bro tomorrow is a better day.

Originally posted by KingBen

Well done man... Mental health is so important to us all and being able to talk about it openly without judgement is essential... Good to hear your in a happier place now

^^^ couldnt of put it better myself!

majority of us have been there or will be there!

Well said BS and very happy about your niece being there and you working through the situation. That takes a big man to do that. You're a good guy, you deserve it bro.

Congrats for overcoming! Being able to speak openly about it is a blessing in its self. Here's to the impact that one statement on one online game can make in someone's everyday reality.

*throws her arms around blackstar and gi es him the biggesy squishiest snuggle she can* you are beautiful mr Star... you are welco.e to hit my inbox anytime you wanna chat xxxx recovery is such a journey... so much loves to you xxx

I think Mr.2cups need one over there too, he seem to be suffering a breakdown as we speak.

Your comment just made me want to add you to my shit list. Fuck off